stressful time

I can;t go through all these alone.
But one thing I know, whenever I feel bad,
I should always think positively.
Life could have been worse.

so I'm glad to have all I had now.
I'm lucky enough already. :)
Thank you God, Thank you Lord

A blessful day

Love of God brings us together.

 It happens that I finished my Medical psychology exam today,
and I went to have lunch alone in SS19, to have my favourite pan mee.
(For whoever do not what is pan mee, it's actually mee hun kuih in JB term).

As usual, this place is always full of people and got no more table available.
So I saw an elderly man, sitting alone with a set of tea pot drinking his tea and waiting for his pan mee.
So I walk towards him and ask him if I could share the table with him
He very kindly tell me that no one is sitting and I can sit with him.

Once I sit down, he start to establish a rapport with me,
asking me that am I alone, am I working nearby bla bla bla...
At first I thought he's a salesman, or someone with mental illness, or perhaps lack of attention,
that's why he is trying to talk a lot to me, and grab my attention.
But I did not walk away, I just sit down and patient listening to his sharing,
since this uncle looks quite lonely.

He tell me a lot about his story, even I do not know him.
Telling me about his family, his life,
his grandma especially, as she brought him up and lead him to where he is today.
He also tell me ow he met his wife and started off that relationship in an amazing way.
And most important thing, he share with me about his perspective towards the life.
About health, about attitude, about responsible, about how to live.

During the conversation,

 I was able to pick up some signs of AcrusSenilis, Restrictive Myopathy, and Exopthalmos from his eyes.

As an optometrist student, 

I shared and discussed with him about these condition my limited knowledge,

and suggested him for an eye check up.

I even show his the picture in my reference book (so coincidently I forgot to return to library!).

Of course, I did mentioned about the free screening eye check in my university, 

but I still tell him it's up to him where to do the check up.

He was very happy that I was able to tell him all these medical conditions, 

and praise me that I would be somebody one day.

He says he loves me very much, and treating me like his daughter.

He even says that he can see and sense that I am a good girl.

( which he did not define how good is actually consider good >"<).

I learn a lot from him.

A stranger that I have not met, because of his willingness to share,

and his love towards the people,

I brought down my pride to be humble, and open up my heart to this person.

I believe he is an elderly person who sounds very happy, 

but actually quite lonely deep down in his heart.

I hope that my attention to his words will make him fill more valuable.

But indeed, he resolves the anger and frustration in my heart since the chaos arises last week.

He was right, you will never know where God will lead you to, in His very own way.

I believe he is an angle sent by God, appointed by God to talk to me,

teaching me how to live life happily and joyfully.

He's words make me feels I'm worth and useful for some purpose.

At least I know all the effort I have done is not wasted,

either my studies, or living through hard times.

Thank you uncle Eddie, 

May God bless you double or even triple in portion in His ways for your willingness to bless the others.

LET GO.

Hello! I am a lucky girl
My name is Elaine!
A name given by my father, inspired by don;t know what. haha!

I thank God for having the opportunity to know the almighty heavenly father.
I thank god for having the opportunity to come and join this world.
This world, no matter is good or bad, I have experienced it.
Glad that I have mouth that can speak, so I hope one day I will learn how to speak nicely.
Glad that I have ear that can hear, so I hope one day I can hear things that benefits and make me joys.
Glad that I have limbs to move, so I hope that I can walk through all the circumstances I go through.
Glad that I have eye to see, so I hope one day I can see things clearly.

I thank god for given the chance to meet my family and friends,
no matter all these people are good or bad.
All I have is not all I had, It's given.
I should not take it for granted.
I want to learn to cherish, and use them wisely.
Even is the air I breath. =)

The more I care, the more I could not let go.
I guess the only thing I have to learn is LET GO.

Sorry for not being a wisdom person

I guess I understand now.


1 Thessalonians 5:15 
Make sure that nobody pays back wrong for wrong, 
but always try to be kind to each other and to everyone else.


 Luke 6:27-28
Love your enemies, 
do good to those who hate you, 
bless those who curse you, 
pray for those who mistreat you.


Proverbs 19:11
A man's wisdom gives him patience; it is to his glory to overlook an offence.


In another words, 
keep your mouth shut even if you are in a deep shit.
keep your mouth shut even if you know the that might not be the truth.
keep your mouth shut even if you that is not fair.


Sorry for not being a wisdom person,
But I still wont pretend as if I am so righteous and generous.
So before I can learn all the above,
and let go of my anger when seeing unrighteousness,
I will keep my mouth shut.


Thank you Jesus, I have learnt my lesson. 
And I hope that I will be more like you someday. =)