End of 2011

So year 2011 is coming to an end.
Not much different from the previous years,
just another end of a year.

2011 has been a long year for me.
Ups and downs lead me here.
Many people blog/vlog about look back of the year.
But I only want to glance back.
Don't feel like looking back,
looking sounds too long for me. =)
I prefer glance.

Hmm,
New year resolution.
Love, Peace, Healthy, Happy, Stay together forever.
It has been the same throughout the years.
Nothing much to talk about.

Next year is 2012.
A year that people have been worrying about,
the world is coming to an end,
maybe just the earth, not the universe.

My opinion?
No point worrying about it,
If it comes, it comes.
No matter what you do,it'll still come.
There's no way you can stop it.
All you have to do is to cherish,
and do your best to hope that it will not come.

It's your choice to choose to believe whether or not the world you come to an end by 2012.
I believe and hope that the the scene in 2012 will just remain behind the screen.=)
I cherish, I give thanks.

Happy holiday.
Happy new year.
Cheers

遗憾？

如果你现在问我，目前为止这一生人有什么遗憾的话，
我会告诉你，就是到东南亚以外的地方读书。

Coming home.

Home, here I come.

Thanks!

It was you who make things better.

You, Yes you.

The one who are reading this post now.

Thanks.

I love you.

<3. 

我年纪不是很大，19岁而已。
虽然已经在大学读了三年，
可是毕竟还不是个成年人。
21岁以下，还有很多东西是法律不允许做的。
说到底，我还是个孩子。

可是我相信这不是我能够任性发脾气的理由。
EQ超低，这是我最强大的弱点。
我是个大性情的人，很情绪化。
但仍然在努力学习成长当中。

还在学习人与人之间的相处。
不是每个人都能接受你的真性情。
不是每个人都能谅解你的苦心。
不是每个人都愿意陪伴在你身边，和你一起成长。

有些人一直在选择逃避，
有些人在虚伪中长大，
有些人选择在瞒骗中成长，
有些人在互相利用中生存。

我很庆幸在我身边的任何人事物，
让我学习到不同的东西，
也很庆幸在我学习的过程中，
有爱我的人扶持我，陪伴我成长，
给了我许多正能量。

所谓人非圣贤，孰能无过。
我们每个人都从错误中学习，成长。
爱我的人总是告诉我，
错了没有关系，
卸下傲气，说声抱歉，
站起来，重新来过，
然后小心谨慎不要再重犯就好了。

我想说声对不起，
给那些我曾经伤害过的人，
虽然不敢奢望你们会原谅我，
但还是打从心底希望你们能原谅我。
哈哈，有点小矛盾。
即使你们不原谅我也真的没关系，
顶多是难过一点，
然后心里有个小小的结，
老是觉得过意不去，
仅此而已。

不原谅我没关系，
毕竟生活还是要过，
我还是会好好的，
希望你们也会过得好好的。

谢谢神，家人，爱人，和好朋友一直在身边的支持。
对不起神，家人，爱人，朋友，敌人，前男友们，
还有一些我可能不认识，但在言语行为上伤害到的人们，动物和植物们。

反省了很久后，
在这里特别要谢谢和一些人，
是他们让我看见了我自己有多丑恶。
顺便也想把一直郁闷在心底里的话说出来。。。

BSMM的senior和junior们，谢谢你们陪伴了我那么多年。也谢谢你们一直以来的谅解，宽容和包容。那些站在我的立场替我说话的人，谢谢你们。那些觉得我做得不对，当面提点我的人，也谢谢你们，因为我知道你们比我理性，也是为了我好。那么多年来，骂你们或伤害过你们的事很抱歉。以后我做事情会先三思而后行。这次若影响到了你们与朋友之间的相处，或留下了烂摊子给你们收，还是让你们难下台了，很抱歉。以后我自己的事，让我自己来背。

韵维，我虽然不认识你，但是我的话似乎让你觉得你的努力被否定了。但我想说的是，我并没有针对你或否定你努力的意思。我看的是结果，事实就是如此，不管你付出多少努力，出来的成果好就是好，不好就是不好。虽然很不好听，但我还是会说，不过下次，我会说得好听一点。对不起！

映夕，我们曾经是很要好很要好的朋友，我不知道我们了解对方有多深，但还是谢谢你那么直接地提醒了我做人不应该这么直接。你的批评我会虚心接受。我的中文没有你那么好，不懂得好好运用文笔来表达自己的情绪还是那句，很抱歉。不过还是那句，忠言逆耳，话可以任你讲，语文可以任你掰，可是事实就是摆在眼前。至于同理心，人在做天在看，有没有做到，我相信你心里比我更清楚。

淇雁，我们虽然不是很熟，但是我也是认识了你很久。从幼稚园到现在，少少有十几年。我觉得你没有了解我很深，所以我觉得你用了不恰当你形容词来批评我，我没有办法接受。我虽然嚣张，但我说的是事实。你可以说我没有礼貌，EQ低，但我绝对不是双面人，因为我没有人前人后两个样，我很直接的表露出了我心底的不爽快 （虽然我知道这很不应该）。还有礼貌，尊重和礼仪，跟一个人是不是大学生没有关系。一个小学毕业的人可以很有礼貌，懂得以礼待人，一个博士毕业生也可以很没有礼貌。至于形象的问题，我从来就没有，何来失去？所以希望你在批评人家之前，了解一下情况，分析一下，再发表吧。但还是谢谢你的提醒，我会对我的言行负责。你可以说我心虚，或是对号入座，但这句话是不是在说我，你自己很清楚。

然后就是那些我不认识st john的members,的。我承认我说那些话的时候并没有想到和顾及你们的感受，那是因为我其实真的并没有想打击你们的意思，那些话原本就只是想发泄心中的不满，纯粹只是想和自己人讨论而已。还有因为privacy setting 的问题，不知道为什么不是我friendlist 里面的人也看得到我写的东西，让看到了的你们觉得我的话说得很过分，言语伤害了你们，所以很抱歉！我下次说话会说好听一点！privacy setting方面会小心一点！Sorry!不过也是那句，忠言逆耳，我说得是事实，接不接受，你们自己决定吧！

接下来是那些我认识的st john member，facebook 里add我as friend的人。我不会随便approve人，是真的认识的才approve。一般正常的setting是要add了人家做朋友才看得到人家的post的东西，在还没add人家之前，是看不到人家的post的东西的。所以我认为你们跑来add我也是因为想看我post的东西，如果你们不想看的话，那就不要add我，remove我from friend list 吧。人人都有自由，我在我的地方，有自由post我的东西，你也有自由不要add我的，我也有权利disapprove你的friend request 的。但我知道自由是不可以被滥用的，我说那些话的时候，的确实没有想到我的friend list 里有那么多st john 的member, 没有顾及到了你们的感受，很抱歉！我下次说话会rephrase一下，说得好听一点！

说完了！ 心情好过多了！
不管这些人看不看得到，
我都希望我说了的这些话后，
能放下我心中的大石，也能放松你们心里的结！

A life full of engineering

I'm now struggling with the Ocular disease exam tomorrow.
Just wanna take a rest and relax.
And I start to think back.
I wanted to be an engineer during my high school time.
It was like an instinct, telling me I should be an engineer.

Even before I start studying physics and add maths,
I already developed my interest in engineering.
In the Form 2 maths,
there's a chapter where we are all require to match the schematic drawing of an opened paper box construction and the final product. Sometimes we are required to draw it.
I don't know how to explain it, but it looks like this:

I'm always the fastest in the class to match or draw it.
Then after that in the subject Kemahiran Hidup (KH a.k.a Daily Living Skills) in form 3, I was assigned to major in the technical instead of the cooking and sewing like other girls.
We study about engine, motor, carpentry, electronic and electric, plumbing and housing etc.
We are also required to do simple Lukisan Kejuruteraan (Engineering drawing),
using the T-tuler and Big board.
Also almost everytime, i'm the fastest person,
or if not the second fastest person to finish the drawing correctly.
In PMR I score A for my KH, which is less common for girls to obtain an A in KH major in technical division.

And so I determined to take LK (lukisan kejuruteraan a.k.a Engineering Drawing) and TK(techikal kejuruteraan a.k.a  technical Engineering) for my extra subject in SPM.
However, due to the subject limit set by the government, I was not allow to take both of the subject.
They allow me to only register for one of it as an extra subject.
But in my opinion LK and Tk should come together to make engineering a whole.
Taking either one of it will make it incomplete, so in the end, I gave up both.
I tell myself I can still do engineering in higher level of education, if I master my sciences and math well.

Then I came to my Pre-U, A level.
And I told myself, I'm gonna do engineering, so I gave up the subject the dislike the most out of the 3 sciences, BIOLOGY.
I do Physics, Chem and Maths for my A levels. And in math, we can choose to major in statistics or mechanics. Teacher suggest physics students to take mechanics (as most of us are determine to become an engineer) and bio students should take statistics (as biostatistics is a major thing in medic field). So, as expected, I chose mechanics as my major on top of the general maths. Happily scoring A for it. =D

Okay, after all these stuff, finally come to bachelor degree.
I end up studying in optometrist.
Stuck with the biology I told Myself I will never want to do it again,
 stuck with the Biostats that I hated so much, even more than I hate calculus.
Wondering why? Because I love my parents. =)
In the end I had a hard time studying in university compared to the other classmates,
just because I has limited biology knowledge as I don't have biology background for my pre-U.
It's like a form 5 student study university level of biology right after SPM. =.=

Talk about the people around me.
My father studied electronic and electrical engineering.
He wanted to be an engineer.
But because of so many things happened, he unable to continue studying it.

During my highschool time, the closest senior and junior around me,
the good friends in BSMM, mostly took LK and TK as major,
and most of them are now studying engineering.
When we hang out, it's like I'm stuck in between,
 with a great passion and interest of what they are studying,
but not really understanding it because I am a biology student,
 and has limited knowledge of what they were discussing.

Then course mates in A levels, in the physics and mechanics maths class, most of them are now studying engineering, but I'm the only person who is doing biology. =.=

Never mind, then I came to PJ to study optometrist, besides my coursemates, my best friends in KL are engineers. A big bunch of engineers. My life in KL is either hang out with my coursemates, or these engineers.
Then after I fell in love with my current boyfriend. We become couple, and we stay together. I know I will marry this guy. And the important thing is that, he is an mechanical engineer. So I know I'm going to spend the rest of my life with an engineer.

I have not much female friends, the two best female friends are Carol and Xin Yi. Carol is studying accountancy and Xin Yi is pursuing music. But the fact is that, both of them are also dating with engineers. Currently in a stable relationship, so it's very likely that both of them are gonna stuck with engineers for the rest of their life too. =.=

I am 19 years old this year, turning 20 in 10 days time.
This is my life, that full of engineering up to this point.
I'm not sure about the future, and not sure where is it leading me to.
But one thing I want to say is, I never regret for not being an engineer.
But I do love engineering and I am happy to be with a bunch of engineering people throughout my life.

Time to continue study, time to go back to biology.
=)

Noel

Christmas is near, just want to share a peaceful yet meaningful song to you all.
This song might sound a little different from the version that you have normally heard.

This piece of music is composed and produced by a friend of mine, Dennis Kuo.
He runs the study music project and constantly produce good music for all of us.
I believe his music will not only help those who are studying,
(although they are designed to be played when we are stuyding),
they also help people who are struggling in work.





Just for you information, this piece is a limited holiday special edition of Study Music Project. When the holiday is over, this video/music will no longer be searchable on Youtube. Therefore, if you really like this video, save the link somewhere or favorite it, cuz it will disappear into oblivion for the rest of the year! 

Support study music project by buying the songs from http://studymusicproject.bandcamp.com/.

Happy holiday and Merry Christmas!

It's december

When I was young, i always look forward the coming of december.
because it means holiday, birthday and most importantly christmas, to me.

But now it's not the case anymore.
I start to fear of december.
For the final exam, for the christmas,
for no time going back home to celebrate birthday.

Sigh, sadness.
Things were much better those days.
Now I just hope to have good rest,
more time with family,
and do things i really like.
Probably a little too demanding,
but i seriously don't feel like doing things right now.
Like Mr lonely says, it seems like i'm wasting my time too.
This is not the life i really want,
I don't ask for fame nor satisfaction.
I just want to be a housewife,
lead a simple, healthy, peaceful life with my family.

But this and that is life right?
There's nothing much we can do about it.
Or probably, i don't dare to do it.

It's my final exam tomorrow,
wish me good luck.

成绩

拿到这样的成绩，我知道我该满足。
我比很多人好命了。
起码我衣食住行都不成问题，
还有额外的时间能上学，
也不用为学费烦恼。
因为我有这样的机会，
我更应该好好珍惜，
尽我的全力好好读书。

虽然事实证明了，
走捷径的人相较之下一般成绩都比较优异，
但不管如何，
就如我的同学淑仪说的：
最重要不要对不起自己。

当傻瓜也好，当奸人也好，
只要过得了自己那一关就好。

If I have a chance, I hope to go to CA once,
to see theamazing asian americans that I like. =)

好人

好人难当啊。
我也想做坏人啊。
=（

Not to care so much

So I was listening to this song written by David Choi.

You were my friend.

The lyrics remind me of what Mr Century Egg told us.

There's no forever friend, and there's no forever enemy.

It's always better to have an extra friend than an extra enemy.

There's a friend zone, called friends with benefits.

And I think many of us are in this zone.

If you ask me if true friend really exist?

I don't know.

People changes as time goes on.

So does the feelings and relationship.

Since the only that doesn't change in this world is changing.

David Choi wrote this song. 

You Can Win.

He wrote this song, because couples, friends, and people in general argue. 

They fight. There is a struggle. You shed tears. 

You care so much about that person but there is only so much you can do. 

Doesn't it suck when the only person you care about in the world would put you last? 

When your words mean nothing. If you care, listen.

Probably that is why I stop caring so much.

Stop being kind.

I don't want to end up hurting myself.

Ignorance is bliss.

It's time to unlock the special power

I locked this special power of myself.
The power of hiding all my feelings.
Ever since I know him.

Maybe it's time for me to unlock it now.
Im a failure.

happily introduce to you, the engineer's princess!!

So this is the long awaited invention of my friend, SK Ding.

For the details of this new invention, please visit the Manufacturer's website.

Congratulation to my friend!! =D

欺人太盛

爸爸说，
害人之心不可有，防人之心不可无。

爸爸说，
宽恕，原谅，心胸放宽，人会好过很多。

爸爸说，
一个会让你生气，难过，伤心的人，
更不该为了他生气，难过，伤心，
因为那样的人，不值得。

爸爸说，
我们要做个谨慎的好人，学习如何在这乱七八糟的世界里，
帮助别人的同时，也要懂得保护自己。

爸爸说，
不要伤心，不要难过，不要生气，
因为这世上还有好多好多快乐的事值得去高兴。

爸爸说，
不要报仇，怨怨相报何时了。
对谁都没有好处。

爸爸说，
孩子，我们爱你，不管发生什么事，
我们都会爱你。

我会努力，去学习，
去面对那些伤害我的人，
尤其是伤害了好几次的人。

谢谢你，同学，
你实在是个很讨人厌和可悲的人，
可是！
虽然我暂时没有办法原谅你，
但我会努力，为了爸爸妈妈，神，家人和朋友给我的爱，
我要努力学会“爱”你，原谅你，放下，宽恕，
和学会保护自己。

我想我总有一天会好过起来的。=）

我想哭，但是哭不出来。
欲哭无泪，原来是那么的难受。

Not happy

I'm not happy at all. =(
It is the worst sem ever.
=(

Kawan

朋友，


If i have not been a good friend in any way, I'm really sorry.
I really tried to be a better one.
Don't ever think that you are not good,
or ever think that it's your problem.


The problem lies within me.
I know.
If i hurt you in anyway,
If I brought any unhappiness to you in anyway,
I'm sorry, and I really sorry.
I really don't mean it.


I had a hard time too.
I feel bad too.
There's nothing much I can do besides saying sorry.
But i really take you as my friend! 

Yam and Cocoyam

I used to called myself a "yam" lover.
I love everything about "yam".
"Yam" in Asia are often used mixed with different type of flours, 
and made into cakes or small ball-like food.


Something like this:

Chinese Steam "Yam" cake 芋头糕

Chinese Fried "Yam" Balls 算盘子

Chinese Grill "Yam" Cake 煎芋头糕

Chinese Sweet "Yam" Balls

"Yam" Cake 芋头蛋糕

"Yam" Paste 芋泥

But, today, I was corrected by my lecturer, Dr Chris,

 that all the while the "yam" I've been eating for the past 20 years,

It's called "COCOYAM", and not "yam" !!!!

Dr Chris is my lecturer from the Nigeria, West Africa. He grew up in a place where all the yams are cultivated. Yams was farmed over 8,000 year; first in Africa, then  Asia and the yam made its way around the World during the slave trade. The yam was introduced to Europe in the 1800s to supplement   the  diminishing   potato   crop   which   was being devastated by disease.  So in another words, he is the Yam specialist!! =D

He knows about yam much better than me!!

Okay I know it might sounds confusing to you. Let me explain to you.

Basically, Yam is an underground tuber like potato, but much bigger, richer and more flavorful.  Yam is a tropical vine tuber with a bark-like exterior;  the inside “meat” ranges in color form every shade of white to yellow and pink.  This highly prized edible fibrous  root vary in taste from sweet, sour, bitter, to bland. Texture varies as well—creamy, grainy, fibrous, and chewy.    Yams are any number of mainly the perennial tropical vines belonging to the botanical named Dioscorea family.

Yam is something that look like this

Cocoyam  is a tropical starchy tuberous root crop. There are many varieties of cocoyam but the most common are the soft variety used mainly as soup thickeners and the yam-like variety that can be boiled in a short time and eaten with pepper sauce.The cocoyam is used mainly as a thickener in some Nigerian soup recipes which include the  Bitterleaf Soup, a very traditional soup recipe, native to the eastern part of Nigeri, and Ora (Oha) Soup, similar to Bitterleaf soup but uses different vegetable in the soup recipe. Other recipes that are prepared with the cocoyam are: 

• Cocoyam Flakes Porridge – The cocoyam is cooked, cut into thin chips and dried in the sun.The resulting flakes are later soaked in water and cooked with vegetables.

• Ekpang Nkwukwo – In this recipe, both the corms and the leaves of the cocoyam are used as ingredients.

Cocoyam looks like this:

Now you understand the difference between a cocoyam and a yam?

Stop calling the cocoyam as yam! hehe!

他们毕业了！

今年年尾，他们就毕业了！
时间过得真快。
几年一下子就过去了。
大家也都长大了。

也希望毕业后，大家会一直保持联系。
虽然知道，时间久后也会有可能疏远。。。
可是在心里还是会想念大家的吧！

其实既使以后没有了联系也没有关系，
虽然会有些遗憾，
但看开了天下间无不散之宴席，
就ok的啦！=D

毕业以后又是人生的另一端旅程，
各位，加油咯！

好人?坏人?

我的同学淑仪说：

说话态度很重要，很多话应该经过思考而弹出。

态度直率不是一个借口。

然后我的朋友小强说：

总比虚伪好的多。

让我想起了乔装和伪装的故事。

我想是的。

我想我是一个说话不经大脑的人。

不懂得做人。

不懂得戴上面具讨好人。

会很直接的把不爽表露出来。

我不知道该怎么选择。

要戴上面具办好人，还是做会自己但得罪人？

当好人又被人揾我笨，做坏人又被人讲我自私。

或许我不是一个好的朋友，

或许你们会不喜欢我，

可是我过不了我心里那一关。

刚刚看了黄明志的blog,

也刚好写了一篇有关这批评的post.

鼓励了我的信心一点点。

希望有一天我会知道怎么做。

First day of EC2

Okay, so this is the first time.
Finally the management of the university I'm studying has decided to unlock the entertainment websites like
facebook, twitter and blogger.
They unlock the access blocker since 2 months ago,
and this is the first time I'm using the computer in this university to write a blog.

You may be very surprise that such university exist n the 21st century.
Blocking facebok, blogger, twitter or any social media websites you can name it.
They even blocked picture search on google. =.=
I know it sounds quite ridiculous, but it is very normal in this university,
as the management of this university is well known for their ridiculour way of managing an institute.

Anyway, if I were to list out how bad they were, it will be an endless story.
But then what have passed is past,
and I can see that they are trying to improving the situation,
although it's not satifactory.
Give them some time I guess, maybe 10 years after I graduate,
Hopefully they become a famous optometry institute,
by then I'll be proud to say that I'm from this college.

I should be grateful to have a chance to study,
so stop complaining about the situation.
Being able to further study in tertiary education itself is already very fortunate,
since they are alot of people in this world don't even get a chance to study,
some don't even have proper living environment.
So be grateful.

Okay, all the best for my exam, although I screwed my first two papers.
=.=

over achievers

I know exactly how bad it feels when you are going out with an over achievers.
Especially that person is your next of kin.
Most are my cousins are over achievers.
They work and study overseas, as professionals.
Like real professionals.
Not those ordinary one.

I know how bad my brother feels.
but I wanna tell you kor,
I never look down on you.
you are doing your best,
and you have been growing a lot through out these days.
I know you have been doing hard to be a good brother.

i love you kor!

其实我真的不是很能忍，但我知道起码你不要太过分，我还是ok的。
我会很尊重你的，如果你也尊重我的话。
你过分一次我可以忍，两次也还ok,
三次我会不爽你，第四次我就不会给脸你了。

以牙还牙这个东西，耶稣说不好。
他说人家打了我们左边脸，
就要连右边也伸出来给他打。
可是啊，他两边都打了，
又在打左边，然后又打右边，无止尽地打，
我受不了啊，我忍耐也有险啊！！
耶稣说他原谅了我们七十个七次，
相对的我们只原谅了人七次。
所以我想进步，放下心结，去原谅人更多次。
我也想要积躲点口德，
虽然很不愉快，不爽，不甘愿，
但还是希望能做得到。

但我发现更难的是面对自己，原谅自己。
我需要勇气踏出去。
放下面子去道歉，去说对不起这三个字。
即使知道错的不是我，
或许是我，但不完全是我的错，
我也要学习成为先说对不起的那一个。

Denial

When I laugh happily,

it doesn't mean that I'm happy.

It just that i'm in the state of denial,

don't wanna accept the fact that I'm sad.

When I choose not to say, 

It doesn't mean I do not know,

It just that I'm in the state of denial,

don't want to accept the fact that I know.

It's okay, It just feel bad when I'm the last one to know these news about you,
from the mouth of other people.
But i'll be fine after that.
If i stop thinking about how close we were in the past.
It was the memories that makes me feel bad.
Not what's happening now.
What's happening now wont be meaningful,
if the past does not exist.
It's all because of the past the present become meaningful.

That awkward moment when we could talk, smile and laugh together again,

In that small small cubicle, for that 2 hours, 

when everything in the past seems to reappear,
and then everything is back to present again.

Maybe you do not care about it anymore,
but you are the most familiar stranger to me.

I don't know what to say, but just congratulations to you.

Maybe I'm not the special friend to you anymore.

But I know when someone ask me, 

I will tell he/she that you were once my best friend,

although we are not anymore.

It was you who gave me the light,

and It was you who brought down my pride too.

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I'm Fat.

I know I'm fat.
Don't have to remind me on that.
I'm putting effort in slimming down.
Thanks for the reminder.

Happy Mooncake Day!

Yes, it's not happy mid autumn festival.
Because there's no autumn in Malaysia.
It's always summer here. =.=

But still, everyone still eat mooncake in Malaysia.
I mean the chinese.
So I prefer to call it Happy mooncake day, or happy lantern day.
hehe

And I believe this is more practical.
Happy everyday, everyone! =D

=D

人问上帝：您感到人类最奇怪的是什么？

上帝说：他们厌倦童年生活，急于长大，而后又渴望返老还童。他们牺牲自己的健康来换取金钱，然后又牺牲金钱来恢复健康。他们对未来充满忧虑，但却忘记现在。于是，他们既不生活于现在之中，又不生活于未来之中。他们活着的时候好像从不会死去，但死去以后又好像从未活过......

人再问:那你有什么经验想分享？

上帝笑道：

他们应该知道不可能取悦于所有人，他们所能做到的只是让自己被人所爱。

他们应该知道，一生中最有价值的不是拥有什么东西，而是拥有什么人。

他们应该知道，与他人攀比是不好的。

他们应该知道，富有的人并不拥有最多，而是需要最少。

他们应该知道，要在所爱的人身上照成深度创伤只要几秒钟，但是治疗创伤却要花上几年时间。

他们应该学会宽恕别人。他们应该知道，有些人深深地爱着他们，但却不知道如何表达自己的感情。

他们应该知道，金钱可以买到任何东西，却买不到幸福。

他们应该知道，得到别人的宽恕是不够的，他们应当宽恕自己~

世上又不好的事情，
但也有好的事情。
我选择过那些喜乐的，
虽然我知道不快乐的我也无法避免。

我选择喜乐，选择开心。
因为我知道，这个世界上，
有爱我的神，爱我的家人，爱我的人，还有我爱的人们。
因此，我选择快乐。
我爱你们，因为爱能包容一切，使人在喜乐中成长。

顺便告诉你，

爱是恒久忍耐，又有恩慈。

爱是不嫉妒，爱是不自夸，不张狂，不做害羞的事，不求自己的益处，不轻易发怒，不计算人的恶，不喜欢不义，只喜欢真理；

凡事包容，凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐。

爱是永不止息。

——《圣经.新约》哥林多前书十三章四节至八节

爱，是永不止息。

感谢神。 =）

Food

Okay, as the title said.
Food.
I need some food.
First, get me some satay.

Oh! satay is here, thank you.

Erm, next, I would like to have some  Roti Jala with delicious curry.

Wow, here it is! Yummy！

Erm, can I have a Roti Telur too? With curry too.

Oh yeah! that's it. very very nice. hehe

That's all for my supper today.

Thanks for providing me such delicious food.

I'm very happy with it.

With an empty stomach and a mind with full of thoughts,

I'm doing to bed now.

Good night everyone!

影子

有些人的性格很相像。
而当你和第一个人分开了之后，
遇到另一个和他性格很相像的人时，
第二个人会让人有一种很熟悉的感觉。
那种很熟悉的感觉，我称作为影子。

我不敢否认，事到如今，我仍觉得，
你有着一些些我前男友的影子。
其实很多时候，你让我想起以前那个男友。
我知道，这对你会很不公平。
或许你会觉得，无论你做得再好，
也会一直活在他的阴影下，
始终不能取代他。

我从来没有想把你们拿来比较。
因为心里知道，你们虽然很相像，
但却还是有不同的地方。
你比他多了一份霸气，多了一份坚持。
他比你多了一份贴心，多了一份纵容。

你常常勾起我对他的回忆，
但是我想想，回头一看，笑了。
看到眼前你，以前的不管发生过什么事，
和什么样的人一起走过，都不重要了。
现在这一刻，就像紧紧的拥抱着眼前的你。
回忆就让他藏在心里吧！
虽然你的确和他有着许多相同的地方，

但你们始终不一样，在我心中的位置，也不会一样。

因为经历不同，我相信结局也会变得不一样。

我爱你，玮航。
因为相信，所以选择了你。
爱你，不是因为你有着他的影子，
而是因为爱的是你，独一无二的你。
因为那独一无二的你，所以才爱你。
=）

**刚刚终于发现了为什么我总是觉得瀚勇有着某个人的影子，原来那个人是志勇啊！哈哈！**

Friends?

We have been unhappy for the past few months, ever since we left that place.
He never tell, but I know and I can feel it.

He feels inferior, because he felt the distance between him and his friends.
So called friends, I don't know whether does it even applicable to them.

I don't know how they define the word friend.

I hope he mean more than colleague to them.

They are the first batch of friends when we stepped into the "real world".

People who lead us and accompany us to what we are today.

Only if they realize we have been doing our best part to be a friend.
Always mentioning them, thinking about them, missing the days we had with them.
Always talking about how we enjoy the moment we be with them.
Always do we best to maintain the friendship we all had.

But yet I realize they don't really care to tell us what's really happening,
even if they do, we're most probably the one of the last one who knows.
Or telling us about the incident after everything is already over.
Leaving us behind and being isolated, when we always put them in the priority.

Actually it's not about whether we're official members of the group,
it's about whether they take us as a part of them,
and always put us in the picture.
Is the heart that matters, not the action.

You guys make him feel alone, feel like he's being left out.
So do I, I feel the same too, feel like we are people from 2 different class/ world now.
If that's how we have been treated after being so nice to you guys,
why are we still doing that?
Because we treat you guys as friend, like real friends.
But if you guys knew that your action and attitude have hurt us deeply,
then please stop doing that.

Third year。

Erm, what I was trying to say is, I'm in the final year already.
This year is the year we will all be doing final year project.
and then next year we'll be doing internship already.
But in order to complete the whole course and get my Bachelor degree certificate and optometry license,
I still have 2 more years to go. =(


Time flies.

I still remember how I get through my first sem. 

But I seriously don't remember how I get through the rest, and make it all the way here, in year three.

It's like Sem 1 then ......................(blank all the way).................Sem5 already!

LOL but don't worry people, the knowledges are somehow stuck in my head!

They will make me a good optometrist, don't worry! XD


I remember sem 1, basically it's because everything is so new and exciting to me that time.
New living environment, new study environment, new place, new friends.
Everything.
That was when I had the hardest time to struggle in order to adapt to all these new stuff.
And that was when my best friend was still my best friend,
accompanying me every moment to help me go through all these shit.
Okay, I know the best friend statement may not make sense to you. =.=
erm, that was when my best friend was still my best friend.
Ya, correct sentence, no problem, ok.
I continue.


I actually don't know how it can end up like this,
I also don't know how to let it go and accept the fact,
my best friend not the one I use to know anymore.
Strangers, again. Hmm this video strikes my head again.
Anyway, I think it's all about getting used to it.
If you don't have other choice but getting used to it is the only thing you can do , 
then you just have to get use to it, right?
Oh sorry I'm deviating away again.


I was talking about my third year right.
Oh ya I start posting to the hospital now.
Seeing real patients.
Going to the ward, to the specialist's clinic, dispensing clinic, and pharmacy, Surgery/Treatment room.
Basically just like what other medical students do.
Nothing much special, except we're start getting lots of scoldings from the doctors. =.=


I don't expect that everything goes on smoothly, cause I know that life has ups and downs.
But i do hope that everything turns out fine in the end.
After all people don;t care how much effort you put in the process,
what they care is just the result.
That's the trend in our world now right? Hmm =/


Okay time to take a rest.
I always blog when I'm unhappy.
I hope things get better ahead.
Phew. Nights everyone！