影子

有些人的性格很相像。
而当你和第一个人分开了之后，
遇到另一个和他性格很相像的人时，
第二个人会让人有一种很熟悉的感觉。
那种很熟悉的感觉，我称作为影子。

我不敢否认，事到如今，我仍觉得，
你有着一些些我前男友的影子。
其实很多时候，你让我想起以前那个男友。
我知道，这对你会很不公平。
或许你会觉得，无论你做得再好，
也会一直活在他的阴影下，
始终不能取代他。

我从来没有想把你们拿来比较。
因为心里知道，你们虽然很相像，
但却还是有不同的地方。
你比他多了一份霸气，多了一份坚持。
他比你多了一份贴心，多了一份纵容。

你常常勾起我对他的回忆，
但是我想想，回头一看，笑了。
看到眼前你，以前的不管发生过什么事，
和什么样的人一起走过，都不重要了。
现在这一刻，就像紧紧的拥抱着眼前的你。
回忆就让他藏在心里吧！
虽然你的确和他有着许多相同的地方，

但你们始终不一样，在我心中的位置，也不会一样。

因为经历不同，我相信结局也会变得不一样。

我爱你，玮航。
因为相信，所以选择了你。
爱你，不是因为你有着他的影子，
而是因为爱的是你，独一无二的你。
因为那独一无二的你，所以才爱你。
=）

**刚刚终于发现了为什么我总是觉得瀚勇有着某个人的影子，原来那个人是志勇啊！哈哈！**

Friends?

We have been unhappy for the past few months, ever since we left that place.
He never tell, but I know and I can feel it.

He feels inferior, because he felt the distance between him and his friends.
So called friends, I don't know whether does it even applicable to them.

I don't know how they define the word friend.

I hope he mean more than colleague to them.

They are the first batch of friends when we stepped into the "real world".

People who lead us and accompany us to what we are today.

Only if they realize we have been doing our best part to be a friend.
Always mentioning them, thinking about them, missing the days we had with them.
Always talking about how we enjoy the moment we be with them.
Always do we best to maintain the friendship we all had.

But yet I realize they don't really care to tell us what's really happening,
even if they do, we're most probably the one of the last one who knows.
Or telling us about the incident after everything is already over.
Leaving us behind and being isolated, when we always put them in the priority.

Actually it's not about whether we're official members of the group,
it's about whether they take us as a part of them,
and always put us in the picture.
Is the heart that matters, not the action.

You guys make him feel alone, feel like he's being left out.
So do I, I feel the same too, feel like we are people from 2 different class/ world now.
If that's how we have been treated after being so nice to you guys,
why are we still doing that?
Because we treat you guys as friend, like real friends.
But if you guys knew that your action and attitude have hurt us deeply,
then please stop doing that.

Third year。

Erm, what I was trying to say is, I'm in the final year already.
This year is the year we will all be doing final year project.
and then next year we'll be doing internship already.
But in order to complete the whole course and get my Bachelor degree certificate and optometry license,
I still have 2 more years to go. =(


Time flies.

I still remember how I get through my first sem. 

But I seriously don't remember how I get through the rest, and make it all the way here, in year three.

It's like Sem 1 then ......................(blank all the way).................Sem5 already!

LOL but don't worry people, the knowledges are somehow stuck in my head!

They will make me a good optometrist, don't worry! XD


I remember sem 1, basically it's because everything is so new and exciting to me that time.
New living environment, new study environment, new place, new friends.
Everything.
That was when I had the hardest time to struggle in order to adapt to all these new stuff.
And that was when my best friend was still my best friend,
accompanying me every moment to help me go through all these shit.
Okay, I know the best friend statement may not make sense to you. =.=
erm, that was when my best friend was still my best friend.
Ya, correct sentence, no problem, ok.
I continue.


I actually don't know how it can end up like this,
I also don't know how to let it go and accept the fact,
my best friend not the one I use to know anymore.
Strangers, again. Hmm this video strikes my head again.
Anyway, I think it's all about getting used to it.
If you don't have other choice but getting used to it is the only thing you can do , 
then you just have to get use to it, right?
Oh sorry I'm deviating away again.


I was talking about my third year right.
Oh ya I start posting to the hospital now.
Seeing real patients.
Going to the ward, to the specialist's clinic, dispensing clinic, and pharmacy, Surgery/Treatment room.
Basically just like what other medical students do.
Nothing much special, except we're start getting lots of scoldings from the doctors. =.=


I don't expect that everything goes on smoothly, cause I know that life has ups and downs.
But i do hope that everything turns out fine in the end.
After all people don;t care how much effort you put in the process,
what they care is just the result.
That's the trend in our world now right? Hmm =/


Okay time to take a rest.
I always blog when I'm unhappy.
I hope things get better ahead.
Phew. Nights everyone！

thanks giving.

"Love your job is the only way to make your life beautiful."


An C&I engineer told me this.
It suddenly reminds me of some thing.


I don't have much friends and keen in KL.
And i'm very glad that I'm very lucky to have these engineers as my friends,
that helped me throughout my days in KL.
They are those who make my Uni and KL life much easier and better,
and those impact keep pushing me on to stay tough in my studies.


Whether or not am I close enough to them in the past, present or future,
they stand an important place in my life.
Whether directly or indirectly,
they have brought great difference into my life.


Just wanna shout out to these friends:
Huan, Ding, Sam, Toh, Chin, JJ, Ng

Sorry for all the troubles I have given to you guys.
Thanks for understanding and tolerating those childish behaviours of mine all this time,
and taking care of me, compromise and being lenient to me on many things.
I do enjoy every moment that I spent with you guys, be it Sing K, Dinner, Yumcha, Talking stupid shit online and whatever. 

 And thanks for "watching over" someone important in my life, which in turn make my life a better one. And just want you guys to know you people worth "more than colleagues". XD

And these people:
Ngu, Jamie, Kang, Cheong, Ee, Peter

And thanks for "watching over" someone important in my life, which in turn make my life a better one.

Finally thanks to all of you for being a part of my life.
I will study very very hard, graduate, love my job, do my best to be a useful person.


Just in case if some of you may forget, I hope you guys will remember that I will be qualified to be rewarded for a meal of super nice Nasi Kandar near KLIA, a Tissot watch, and a BR when I graduate. Wakakaka, jk, but seriously. XD


Thank you guys for everything, and I do appreciate the friendship/ acquaintanceship we have,
Less than three.

Blogging and Bloggers

I normally blog only when I have some strong feelings, emotions or thought that strikes me.

then the I'll come to is blogger.

So most of the time, my blog post are randomly written.

And those who are reading it may not get I'm trying to express.

That is one of the reasons why I have very limited readers for my blog.

LOL anyway it doesn't matter.

I don't write to generate views.

Blogging is just one of the ways I release my feelings and thoughts.

I'm impressed by those bloggers who take their blog seriously.

They constantly spend time to manage their blog nicely. 

Their blog are organised, full of interesting contents and information. 

It's their hobby I guess, or maybe it's a routine to them.

As a blogger too, I would rather spend my those time to sleep and rest. Haha!

These are the two blogs I like quite alot.

Life by CH Voon

Life Like Movie  By Sam Ng KH

I like Voon's blog for his organised, informative and life-relating topics

Everything he writes are just things happening around him,

which are quite similar to many of us out there,

making us feel the same and somehow felt attached and connected to the blog.

But the way he expresses those simple daily events is so interesting.

With photos, monolog, etc. He make us feel so close and warm.

I like Sam's blog for his sketches, creativity, and his truthfulness.

His sketches are so lively, and adorable.

Every part of his sketch has its own meaning, 

where he normally further elaborate them with words and sentences in the blog post.

He think, then he write. 

Blaaaaaaaa....... He wrote directly from his brain, as if as he didn't filter them.

He is just being straight forward, from his words you can actually feel how he feel.

Sometimes he voices out things that have been kept deep inside your heart,

those which you don't dare to talk, or even think about it.

Suddenly he speaks everything out for you, in his blog. Haha!

He makes the blog alive!

I can't really describe in detail how am I affected to these blogs.

But that's how I feel when I read their blog post.

Their blog post cheer people up.

Sometimes I doubt if they are really engineers,

Since people always say those typical engineers are normally very boring and "woody" 

(In Cantonese is Mok Tao). XD

I'm not sure if they knew their blog post have helped many pessimistic soul out there.

But Voon and Sam, if by any chance you guys see this blogspot,

I want to say thank you for being such a good blogger that bring sunshine to the other's life.

Keep it up and be a blessing to the others!

Cheers! =)

新学期

基本上我没有什么时间上网。
每天早上7点出门，回到家里11点多了。
很累，一大堆功课要做，一大堆衣服要洗。
通常上网都是check电邮,和上班网看更新资料。

喜欢上youtube,看看那群让我觉得很真实的美籍亚裔网络明星。
哈哈，Asian Americans online celebrities,是这样翻译的吗？
也喜欢上网听听歌。

再来就是blog 和 twitter.
我不是一个EQ很高的人。
我需要发泄那按耐不住情绪。
但我会选择适当的地方时间和方式去发泄。
其中一个方法就是写部落格和twitter.

说到到这里，有些人问我facebook跑去那里了。

大多都是因为21生日办party要invite我时，才发现我名字不见了。

哈哈，要不然应该也不会注意到吧？

facebook这个东西，就是add了一大堆人，

结果可能曾经add/ approve过谁自己也忘了.

是个社交网站吧？让大家分享自己的东西，

然后大家就能从中知道你最近都在干些什么。

要不然就就是用来打广告，玩game用的。

个人觉得，facebook和msn是给那些寂寞的人上的。

因为那样的页面给你感觉很多人在陪着你。

其实我不太爱上facebook和msn，觉得那里很多人，很烦。

我总觉得多余的社交和刻意和人打好关系是不必要的。

我认为，真正关心你的人，会时不时给你写信息捎电话，联络感情。

而不是在有需要的时候才找你，

要不然就因为facebook的notification不小心看到你的名字有reply，

或birthday reminder ，就随便应酬式的给人家写信息或回复。

或许正因如此，我变得越来越不喜欢说话，也不想理别人在干什么。

也或许因为我不寂寞，也对打交道没什么兴趣，

所以会觉得facebook和msn对我来说没有什么意义，

所以也就没想到要上。

今天周末难得有空，一时兴起想上一上，

却发现saved password 被我清理browser垃圾时一起洗掉了。

现在密码没了，也不记得了，不用上了。哈哈！

我希望新学期会过得比以往愉快，虽然常常事与愿违。=（

终于周末了，我想好好睡一觉。。。

各位晚安！