Work

So, I started working.
First as a part time, then decided to turn into full time.

Working is a new challenge for me.
To adapt new environment,
new people.

I will learn, and do my best,
to step into this new page of life.

=)

=)

I have been crying so much for the past few days.
I feel upset whenever I think about it.
Fear of the possibilities ahead.

But that shouldn't hinder me from going forward right?
Past, or uncertainties in future?
I can't let them influence my present.

It's a very hard time for me,
trying to leap forward,
and start a new life.
To start seeing things in a different perspective,
To learn to accept and unfold whatever happens,
without regrets and resentments.

It takes a lot of courage to do so,
to pick up the first step,
into the whole new journey of life.
To leave out things that bothers me,
to wipe out negative thoughts that haunts me.

 I really don't know how i should put it,
to make you understand that,
love doesn't mean that you have to own someone,
and put them under your control.
Instead let them free to fly,
but stay by their side and fly along with them.

Your supports meant a lot to me,
that is why I was so upset.
But from now onwards,
I will have to be strong,
to love myself first,
before I can start loving the others.

I hope one day you will understand,
and accept me for who I am. =)

Having Faith.

God says, When I have no one to turn into,
Turn to Him. He will listen to my prayers.

When I feel the whole world is not with me,
Like Job did,
I shall never lose faith in God,
and believe he plans the best for me.

Finally. 4th of July.

4th of July. Independence day of United States of America.

 But this year, 4th of July, 2013

Is my independence day.

Finally my 4 years of undergraduate life ended.

Finally I can stop going to school for a real long time.

4 years,

full of memories,

good and bad.

All of them are precious.

NIO batch 4 people, I will miss you guys,

and the time we spent together in this 4 years.

*tears dropping* :_(

U-47

家的感覺，我一直沒有忘記。

你們長大了。
相信現在的你們能夠體會到當時我對你們的心情。
看著當初從矮矮小小只，懵懵懂懂的小瓜們,
蛻變成懂事成熟的大帥哥大美女們,
那種說不出的心情。

我記得以前，常會接到你們的電話，公事私事都打來，
不管是有問題還是純粹分享，我都會很開心。
我知道我雖然不是一個很好的領導，
很多時後不僅幫不到你們，還把事情弄得更糟，
但能一起分擔，就很慶幸自己是家的一份子。

現在你們長大了，電話少了，甚至沒有再打來了。
雖然我會很難過，可這也代表你們長大能獨立了，
能自己承受和處理問題，我也會心慰。
雖然沒有人再打來，可是我一直有在遠遠偷偷望。
每次你們比賽其實我都懂，照片也有在看。
看到又有人長高了，有人肥了，有人瘦了。
大家都笑得很開心，就能感受到家的溫暖，一直還有在。

有時候回新山逛街，會遇到小瓜上前叫我，問我記不記得他們。
因為小瓜們都長大了，變得和印象中的不一樣，
一下子認不出來，但說了名字我馬上記起來了。
有些小瓜會很開心的說：哇，以前那麼多人，你竟然還記得我！
我說，因為很在意你們，所以記得。每一個都記得。=)
我說，我也很開心，你也還記得我。
因為有人記得，所以覺得自己似乎還是家的一份子。


最對不起的就是錦龍，你栽培的那麼多人裡，我最沒用。
最讓你失望你的就是我。
以前一直不明白為什麼每個人中三就能接手，
可是你堅持自己挨到中五，讓我中四才接手。
其實一開始你就知道我好強，也知道我女大不中留。
你為了這個家好，已經盡力避免讓我因好強而走錯了路，
但到最後我還是對不起你，對不起這個家。


雖然人不在家，雖然沒回家，但心一直在家，
家的感覺，我一直沒有忘記。

有時候道歉並不是因爲自己是錯的 而是比起對不起三個字而言 我更珍惜我們之間的關系.


我會重新學習戴上面具
學著強忍著眼淚，不再讓你看見我哭泣
學著壓抑著情緒, 不再讓你廳我發脾氣
以後不管傷心難過，我會努力自己扛
讓你以後看到我，都只看到面具上的微笑

=) 加油

我不會說很多很有道理的哲學和語錄，一般都是簡單直接，從心而出.

人生的起起落落真的很多，起伏也很大。
時間一直在走，有的人成長，有的人倒退了,也有的人停留,。
這些年來，說真的，我也不知道自己變了多少。
變好變壞，其實我也不知道。

我想做到珍惜當下，眼看前方，然後一直往前走。
不管發生什麼事，都想做到這一點。
因為不管人生的路是好走，還是不好走，我還是得走。
我希望我能更努力做到這一點。
因為我覺得只有這樣，我才能把所經歷的一切都看淡，
用更有寬闊的視野和心胸去詮釋人生。

Final semester

Hmm... Hey! Good news! Im in my final semester already.
Hope everything  fine and i can graduate smoothly. =)

Something unhappy happened at the end of last semester.
But something happy happened too.

Life is full of ups and downs, i just hope to go through everything smoothly.

Bad news: I am fat now. I am 55kg right now. I wanna lose weight!!!!!! T.T

I don't know how many people are still reading my blog. But it's okay. =)


Dear, thank you for everything.
I know it's not always the truth that you are telling,
but you are not telling it because you know the truth hurts.

Day by day, you have changed me.
I will do my best to become better.
I love you, Wai Hung. =)

So, here comes 2013

So,
glad that many of us here survived through the Mayan calander's of so called the end of the world,
Or more technically, we survived through the so called predicted end of the earth.

You know what? If you are still reading this, you are lucky.
Many people didnt make it to 2013.
Their world ends, and they left us to another world.
The indian girl who left us on 29/12/12 didnt make it through.
She is just one of those who didnt make it through.
Many people in this world, who is not known by most of us,
didnt make it through too.

Im glad that I made it through.
And sit here to write down this post.
Im thankful.
I dont have any new year resolution.
to me, it's just another day of the part of my life which is worth celebrating like the other days in the year.

My wish is always the same,
hoping that all of us will stay together forever,
 remain the relationship, remember each other,
and love each other.


So here comes 2013. =)
happy new year everybody,