2016.

最後一次上來竟然是一年半前的事了。

是要多無奈我才會上來這裡？

２０１５很遭糕。
三場手術，七人進院，兩人去世。
婚後感情下滑的速度令難以置信。
工作壓力大得喘不過氣。
這一切讓人窒息。

一年下來，有多少心酸史說不出來？
夜夜失眠，以淚洗臉的日子還要過多久？

別再告訴我新年新氣象這種自欺欺人的話了。
２０１６ 並沒有，也不會對我寬容。

但願那好不容易擺脫了的憂鬱症和自殺念頭，
不要再纏上我。

每個人有不同的經歷，因此也造就了不同的人生。

當你覺得生活很逼人，快喘不過氣時，閉上眼，深呼吸。

你會發現其實一切都不過是過眼雲煙。

加油，共勉之!

a new place to work

Hi, I'm here again.

I have start working at the new place. So far so good, challenges here and there and still trying hard to cope with it.

I'm not as smart as people think, I have weakness and at times I doubted myself too. Sometimes I run away from the obstacles, simply because I don't kno how to handle it.

I not trying to complain how hard life is. Life is never hard for me, perhaps, it's because it has been easy all the way, it makes me weaker.

I hope someday I can rebuild my confidence and stand up again, and keep trying whenever I fail, until I succeed.

God please help me, alone Im weak, and I can't handle it, but wheb I count on the one who give me strength, I believe I can do extraordinary things.

" I can do all things through Him who give me strength." -Philippians 4:13

:)

Midnight Insomnia

What would you do normally,
when you have a sleepless night?

For 23 years of my life,
this is the first time im getting insomnia.
I woke up at 3am, and it has been almost 3 hours from now.

I was laying on my bed, keeping my eyes close,
trying to sleep again.
But I just couldn't sleep.

Is this an sign of getting old?=(

So I decided to stop forcing myself into sleep.
Instead, I woke up and turn on my lappy,
and start writing blog.

I don't spend a lot of time managing this blog nowadays.
But it doest mean that I forget this place.
A blog is always a best place for me to express my feelings,
when I have no one else to turn to.

It is sort of like my mini dairy.
Where I record my feelings, my thoughts,
from time to time.

I dont normally have a theme to write about.
I would just type whatever I have in my mind,
and let the words flow.

I used to have more fun writting blog,
until the recent few years,
I only come here whenever I have negative thoughts.
Like upset, loneliness, anger.

I dont know since when it have been like that.
Probably ever since I know there wont be anyone else reading the blog any more.
But anyway,
I didnt plan to write for gaining views.
It was always just some random thoughts floating around.

I guess I can start reading a novel now.
When you are bored,
I guess reading story books can keep you entertained.
Novel its just an advance/ mature version of a strorybook anyway,
minus the pictures and illustrations. LOL

=)