自我保护程式

原来这就是自我保护程式。
启动时，会shut down 全部connection.
让我的世界，只有剩下我和你。

我曾经不明白，也不了解，
多情的人类，
怎么能够控制情绪和情感，
不能够控制，就保护不了自己。

所以也不明白该如何专注于单一。

而现在的我，
自从启动了自我保护程式，
一切变得简单的多。
shut down 全部connection，生活圈子小了，
自然就更专注了。

如何让你成为我生命中的唯一？
唯一的方法就让我的世界里就只剩下我和你，
那你就是我的唯一。

耶稣我爱你，老公我也爱你，家人我也爱你们。
请让我启动程式，
让你们都成为我的唯一。

Emotional

I don;t know why actually I'm being emotional.
I don't know how to hide my feelings, and smile in front of you when I'm hurt.
I hope I can be who I am, in front of you.
To smile when I'm happy,
to laugh when I'm joy,
to cry when I'm sad,
and to throw my temper when I'm angry..

I'm just scared...
How am I going to let go all these feelings....

A place where I write

I write here.

A place where I write.

Everything.

My thoughts, my life, my feelings.

I don't really care if people are reading it or do people understand it,

but readers do support me to continue writing.

Those spammers on Cbox.

I know these people are not real.

But still thanks for leaving message around for whatever purpose,

they make me feel that there are people reading my post.

Okay, I know, I'm trying to deceive myself.

Call me a stupid.

Because I am a stupid genius junior.

I know I'm not so genius afterall,

and I'm not so stupid afterall,

because I'm just a junior, afterall.

There are always some feelings or thoughts, that I do not know who to share with.

it's not that I don't have someone to talk to.

But talking to a person and sharing your thoughts and feelings to a person is 2 different things.

If the other party do not have the mutual feeling, then it's a talking, not sharing.

It's easy to find someone who willing to listen to you

but it's hard to really find someone who really understand how you feels,

and it's even harder to find someone who feel the same as you.

Sometime people that seems to be close to you not necessarily the one you can share with,

and sometimes the most personal advice can be found in complete strangers.

That is why in the end, I choose to write it here.

My feelings, my thoughts.

To make myself believe that I will feel better after writing it all out.

I know, I will be fine someday. 

Life goes on.

And just be thankful that life does goes on. =) 

Today is Friday

It's friday..

LOL weekend?

FUN FUN FUN FUN...

Ok stop it, I dont wanna be another rebecca black. XD

Mood is just bad today.

Time changes.

I don't want us to become strangers again.

Maybe you just don't like the way I am anymore.

But you just don't tell.

I'm not as good as people think I am.

I tired of being like this.

I just want to be alone.

I'm fine.

Just leave me alone.

I'll be okay.

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