好人?坏人?

我的同学淑仪说：

说话态度很重要，很多话应该经过思考而弹出。

态度直率不是一个借口。

然后我的朋友小强说：

总比虚伪好的多。

让我想起了乔装和伪装的故事。

我想是的。

我想我是一个说话不经大脑的人。

不懂得做人。

不懂得戴上面具讨好人。

会很直接的把不爽表露出来。

我不知道该怎么选择。

要戴上面具办好人，还是做会自己但得罪人？

当好人又被人揾我笨，做坏人又被人讲我自私。

或许我不是一个好的朋友，

或许你们会不喜欢我，

可是我过不了我心里那一关。

刚刚看了黄明志的blog,

也刚好写了一篇有关这批评的post.

鼓励了我的信心一点点。

希望有一天我会知道怎么做。

First day of EC2

Okay, so this is the first time.
Finally the management of the university I'm studying has decided to unlock the entertainment websites like
facebook, twitter and blogger.
They unlock the access blocker since 2 months ago,
and this is the first time I'm using the computer in this university to write a blog.

You may be very surprise that such university exist n the 21st century.
Blocking facebok, blogger, twitter or any social media websites you can name it.
They even blocked picture search on google. =.=
I know it sounds quite ridiculous, but it is very normal in this university,
as the management of this university is well known for their ridiculour way of managing an institute.

Anyway, if I were to list out how bad they were, it will be an endless story.
But then what have passed is past,
and I can see that they are trying to improving the situation,
although it's not satifactory.
Give them some time I guess, maybe 10 years after I graduate,
Hopefully they become a famous optometry institute,
by then I'll be proud to say that I'm from this college.

I should be grateful to have a chance to study,
so stop complaining about the situation.
Being able to further study in tertiary education itself is already very fortunate,
since they are alot of people in this world don't even get a chance to study,
some don't even have proper living environment.
So be grateful.

Okay, all the best for my exam, although I screwed my first two papers.
=.=

over achievers

I know exactly how bad it feels when you are going out with an over achievers.
Especially that person is your next of kin.
Most are my cousins are over achievers.
They work and study overseas, as professionals.
Like real professionals.
Not those ordinary one.

I know how bad my brother feels.
but I wanna tell you kor,
I never look down on you.
you are doing your best,
and you have been growing a lot through out these days.
I know you have been doing hard to be a good brother.

i love you kor!

其实我真的不是很能忍，但我知道起码你不要太过分，我还是ok的。
我会很尊重你的，如果你也尊重我的话。
你过分一次我可以忍，两次也还ok,
三次我会不爽你，第四次我就不会给脸你了。

以牙还牙这个东西，耶稣说不好。
他说人家打了我们左边脸，
就要连右边也伸出来给他打。
可是啊，他两边都打了，
又在打左边，然后又打右边，无止尽地打，
我受不了啊，我忍耐也有险啊！！
耶稣说他原谅了我们七十个七次，
相对的我们只原谅了人七次。
所以我想进步，放下心结，去原谅人更多次。
我也想要积躲点口德，
虽然很不愉快，不爽，不甘愿，
但还是希望能做得到。

但我发现更难的是面对自己，原谅自己。
我需要勇气踏出去。
放下面子去道歉，去说对不起这三个字。
即使知道错的不是我，
或许是我，但不完全是我的错，
我也要学习成为先说对不起的那一个。